It’s been a week of goodbyes. My friends all left to go back to their homes for the holidays and I said farewell to another portrait. I do feel lonely from time to time. There’s already so much solitude while painting that it would be weird if I didn’t want human interaction. I’m happy the commission is finished and my client is pleased. There will always be that slight anxiety of sending the final product and having it be rejected. I think I would implode if I was told “can you re-paint the eyes please?” I still got that touch.

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I’ve been quite moody after finishing up this portrait. At the start of this piece, I was nervous. This is the first real figurative thing I’ve done since leaving Montreal and the academy. I wasn’t sure if I remembered how to paint like Armando Cabba. The academy’s methods have helped me and slightly changed the way I approach portraits. I don’t label any of my portraits as being traditional realism.  I paint the way I see using my ways. I’ve been feeling the need to evolve. Looking at artists like Picasso and Cezanne, who both began as excellent academically trained artists, they transformed how they saw and painted. I played a bit with this commission. I’m not too crazy about making traditional portraits anymore. Composition has been on my mind and I want to go somewhere else in general.This is not a final product of what I’m going to be. It’s a risk I took. Some people like it and other people don’t, but it really doesn’t matter to me because I learnt something from it. That doesn’t mean I’m not open or think I’m too good for criticism. I appreciate anyone who spends time to give me feed back ,but at the end of the day I’m working for myself and not to satisfy your personal taste.

Any body can learn how to paint a highly rendered center based perfectly mirror image of anyone. When the artist chooses not to, he/she has found something more. As hard on myself as I can be, I’m not discrediting my previous work. They’ve all been stepping stones. Each of them have been huge lessons and some have been also great as a painting in general. All that I can say that’s left to do is to keep on walking. Just like Dewey Cox, I’m going to walk hard.